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Jan 11

It’s 2015, and what-not…

Category: Life

So, it’s 2015, I’m thirty-four years, eleven days older. Yay. Am I supposed to feel wiser? If I am, I don’t. Mostly, I just feel… down… melancholy. 2015 has to be something good, not that it could just magically be something good. I have to endeavor to make it something good. I know I can… I can. I still have some fight in me, and when I don’t feel like fighting, that’s obviously when I have to fight harder.

I kind of just let 2014 happen to me, I can’t let 2015 go the same way.

6 comments

6 Comments so far

  1. josh January 11th, 2015 11:40 pm

    2015 feels fertile for activity… I think I’m actually excited for this one!

  2. Doug K January 12th, 2015 1:06 am

    Everybody’s pain is relative, and to whatever degree, I feel similar feelings as you. Some encouraging news: the “Montage of Heck” is coming out this year. I hope sincerely 2015 is kinder to you. Or more to your sentiment; that you take a hold of your experience and willfully make life more to your liking. To 2015! (note: grammar is not my strong suit. I seem to have missed those years in my education)

    Non sequitur coming. As a fellow Elliott Smith fan, one lyric that always struck me as unbelievable powerful: “I’m never going to know you now, but I’m going to love you anyhow” from Waltz #2

    Are you a fan of Neutral Milk Hotel? Some of the prettiest lyrics around: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jtZx9LNpAY

    Best to you!!!

  3. Elaine January 12th, 2015 7:28 am

    Happy 2015! I love what I’m hearing Michael!

  4. Georgette January 14th, 2015 2:15 pm

    Happy New Year Michael!! Hoping 2015 will be a GREAT year for you!!

  5. Aaron January 16th, 2015 6:22 pm

    Hi, I’ve been reading here awhile, and as a writer (as well as a reader), I think it might feel good to just really let loose on the muse.

    Just let the words fly, take away the barriers. I remember you saying in the past that you couldn’t really be as honest as you wanted to be about certain things in your life.

    Is that still the case? Because you’re a fantastic writer and I love your autobiographical stuff.

    Just as a for instance, more of that would be amazing. But really anything could be amazing, and if you perhaps let loose without regard to good/bad/mediocre/amazing–just write. Just let words flow again…

    Maybe that could be a fun start to 2015? Just a thought from a fellow writer…

  6. Megan January 24th, 2015 6:44 pm

    Reading this post, has reflected my thoughts of every new year that flies by. Although reading this post really made me realize how much I hold myself back from actually making the new year different from the last. Your posts have truely moved me. This post lead to other posts you have written. Some made me teary eyed, some made me smile. This one though, is my favorite. It’s motivated me to start the next page in my new chapter, my new job…this new year. Thank you

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