My Whole Expanse I Cannot See...

My face

michael — Thu, 10 May 2012 03:57:17 +0000

So, I’ve somehow managed to injure my face. I have this astonishing pain on the right side of my face, above my upper-lip. My doctors think something’s gone screwy with my trigeminal nerve, but they don’t know how, or why, or if that’s even the actual problem. We kerryknow it’s not dental, or an infection, or a tumor, or fluid. I got this spontaneous bruise, then everything went crazy. The bruise left, the pain stayed, and that spot on my face is hard to the touch, and IT REALLY HURTS. I once broke my femur, this is worse, because it doesn’t stop. My femur was only bad when I moved. This, this hurts all the time. The pain medicine helps, but when it wears off, like it’s doing right now, I can hardly think straight.

I’ll write more later.

What-not

michael — Tue, 24 Apr 2012 21:36:56 +0000

So, I’m just trying to make myself write. I haven’t had an assistant since mid-December, and she was… a downer, so honestly, I’m really not okay. I feel trapped, stuck. I can’t just go to the coffee shop, or a movie, or for a tattoo, or whatever else I might want to do on a whim. The things that help make me feel alive. I interview and interview and interview, but nothing yet. It’s frustrating.

Updateses

michael — Sat, 21 Apr 2012 22:39:50 +0000

So, first off, I’m a… persistent person. Or stubborn. Or persistent. Or persistently stubborn. The point is, once I get something in my head, I don’t just let it go. I lost a BUNCH of movies, it was my fault. I deleted them, stupidly. I was able to convince Apple to let me re-download the 300ish that weren’t in the Cloud, but some, too many, just aren’t available anymore. Apple can’t restore movies they stopped selling. Everything in my last post, no longer available. It was upsetting, at least to me. They were mine, my movies. I collected them, moved them from hard drive to hard drive. I watched a few of them alone, in the ICU way back when, after the pineapple juice that killed me but didn’t. I watched some crazy and happy in love. A few, I hadn’t even watched yet. Harvey, May, they really upset me. I’ve seen them so many times. I have essays in my head, unwritten of yet, about Harvey and May. Predators, okay, nobody liked Predators, but for some reason, I’m not in that nobody category. I think it’s a blast. It’s fun, and Adrian Brody quotes Hemingway! How can you go wrong with fun and Hemingway quotes? You can’t! I didn’t want to lose these movies, my library forever incomplete. I want to thank everyone who offered to send me DVDs, it was very nice. Unfortunately, I’m weird, and a snob. DVD rips just aren’t the same, and that wouldn’t fix the HD issue. Besides, even with DVD rips, or even if people had sent me actual iTunes files and I SOMEHOW broke the DRM (which was REALLY unlikely), those movies wouldn’t have been MY movies, the files I collected and stupidly deleted. Like I said, I’m weird.

At any rate, these missing movies were a real problem for me. I was so mad at myself. I know they’re just digital files, but the sense of loss, and that it was my fault… I was just really upset. I don’t expect anyone to understand. Everyone here thought I was crazy. I just couldn’t let them go. I didn’t let them go. I won’t get all boring and technical, and talk about how you can’t use data recovery software on wirelessly mounted network drives and how I got around that issue, I’ll just say that, I did. After over 90 hours and three different data recovery software packages, my movies are back, safe and sound. Persistence paid off.

In other news, speaking of the ICU, I just spent a week in there. It was was a really bad, possibly the worst hospital experience I’ve ever had. I’m done writing anymore about it, just thinking about it still bothers me. I’m out, that’s that.

Help: Lost Movies

michael — Thu, 29 Mar 2012 05:32:52 +0000

I’m not dead, I have to start writing again. I miss it here.

Anyways, first…
 I know this is a LONG SHOT, but I need some help if anybody has it. I accidentally (stupidly) deleted a bunch of iTunes movies, movies that I can’t even re-buy because iTunes quit carrying them. My THEORY is that if I could just get the files back I could make them work.

So, does anybody have any of the following….

The Adjustment Bureau
Harvey
Jane Eyre (2011) HD
May
Paul (Unrated) HD
Pulp Fiction
Predators
Shattered Glass
Somewhere (2011) HD
X-Men 2
X-Men: First Class HD
Water For Elephants

If so, please write, michael@lithiumcreations.com

Thank you!

Obviously

michael — Tue, 28 Feb 2012 11:02:22 +0000

Obviously, I fucked up February.

Not so obviously, I can’t sleep.

Bad day

michael — Tue, 14 Feb 2012 07:01:02 +0000

I had a bad day on the midway.

Really

michael — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 05:09:55 +0000

Really, a real post is coming.

Nothing

michael — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 04:57:50 +0000

Nothing.

Not working out

michael — Sat, 11 Feb 2012 05:52:24 +0000

So, I hired this tabby cat to write my blog, and it’s only been two days, but I feel like it’s not working out. His posts are really less interesting than I expected, and his prose are flat and unimaginative. I think he’s perfectly capable of writing, say, a user manual for growing sea monkeys, but our personal and creative differences have only served to build an unexpectedly hostile work environment. Therefore, I’ve decided that we should cut ties personally and professionally effective immediately.

I wonder if a turtle would be a better fit?

A bird

michael — Sat, 11 Feb 2012 01:08:42 +0000

A bird was so mean to me today. They think they’re so great because they can fly. Birds are not great. I hate them.