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Loooooong Day…

March 11th, 2016 | Category: Life

So, it’s been a really long day, not busy in any good way. I lost a subscriber, which I never like. I’ve said it before, and I don’t mind saying it again… I need exit interviews! Actually, I wonder if such a thing is technically possible… I just want some sort of optional form that would answer the whys surrounding a dropped subscription. Though, being the sort of fellow who frets over lost subscribers could inspire more folks to jump ship. Let’s just maybe pretend the last paragraph didn’t happen.

I have some serious posts in the hopper, but for now, I retire.

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The Clinton Rally!

March 10th, 2016 | Category: Life,Opinions,Thoughts on Politics
Waiting for Hillary…

Waiting for Hillary…

The Hillary Clinton rally was packed, standing room only. Had the venue been large enough, people would have filled it. Her chances to take Florida in next week’s Primary are looking really good. Still, if you’re a Hillary supporter in sunny Florida, now is not the time to get complacent. Just because various polls say she’s up by 30, 40ish points doesn’t mean it’s safe to skip voting. That’s how election upsets happen; a candidate is way up in the polls, their supporters stay home on Election Day, while the underdog’s supporters show up en masse. We can’t let that happen, in any state. We can’t let Bernie Sanders take Primaries because his supporters are super-organized, while we’re so wrapped up in polls and projections that we forget to actually VOTE for the woman who ought to be our next President, Hillary Rodham Clinton.

Hillary talking plans and policies… that actually make sense!

Over the last year, I’ve really paid a great deal of attention to Clinton’s speeches. It’s one thing to visit web sites, read up on the candidates, but hearing them speak is a totally different experience.

I’m going to be honest, I’ve only really started paying serious attention to Hillary Clinton this election cycle. Up until this past year, I’ve had cursory knowledge of Hillary; She’s former President Clinton’s wife. As First-Lady she championed universal health care, and lost. She was Senator of New York, Secretary of State, a career politician. Some say she’s sort of cold, others say she’s a stone-cold bitch. That was the gist of my knowledge of Hillary Clinton. With that kind of understanding, I didn’t like her so much. I did a really poor job of understanding one of our country’s most influential politicians. Such is no longer the case.

Hearing Hillary Clinton speak, the most important thing I’ve come to understand is that she is a true public servant. She isn’t in politics for power, or greed, or to make her rich pals richer. Hillary Clinton is in politics to affect change, to make society better than how she found it by the time she leaves it. Her entire political career has been about helping people, serving America. She cares deeply that all Americans have their shot at life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. She’s worked in child-advocacy, with a focus on health care for children, and early education programs. She led a strong charge to grant access to health care for all. Her attempt at health care reform was unsuccessful, but she tried because it was the right thing to do. She’s what all politicians should be, one who genuinely cares about people, especially those who are the most vulnerable. You can hear it in her voice, a sincere desire to perform good works.

As for being a stone-cold bitch, I think that’s a moniker given too often to women who are bold enough to smash a glass ceiling rather than be crushed underneath it.

After hearing Hillary Clinton speak in person, I’m only more certain that she is the right person to serve as our next President.

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Rally!

March 09th, 2016 | Category: Life

So, tomorrow I’m going to a Hillary Clinton rally…

Pictures to come!

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Still tired

March 08th, 2016 | Category: Life

So, I’m still tired from yesterday, as the day after trach day is never particularly spectacular.

I feel worn down, uneasy.

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Really really quite tired, really

March 07th, 2016 | Category: Life

So, two trach changes and a lot of hours later… I’m pretty exhausted.

I feel rode hard and put away wet.

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Fresh trach tomorrow

March 06th, 2016 | Category: Life

So, I go for a fresh trach in like, seven hours.

If I can’t sleep, and I feel like writing anything profound, I’ll write it.

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Nothing yet

March 05th, 2016 | Category: Life

My trach’s still being a bastard.

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Something tomorrow

March 04th, 2016 | Category: Life

I’ll write something substituted tomorrow.

My trach (the little plastic tube in my throat) is really bothering me today, I can’t focus.

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Reader questions: Attempt #1

March 03rd, 2016 | Category: Life

So, I’m not answering these reader questions in order received. It’s more like, the order of… most fun.

One of my original readers, Ormolu, posed a fun set of questions. I’m really happy you’re still around, Ormolu, it means a lot to me that you’ve stuck it out.

Anyway, she wrote:

“Hi Michael,
I haven’t been maintaining my blog or I’d leave the address here. Maybe I’ll start a new one. You’ve probably addressed questions on your belief in fate and the afterlife and soulmates, but I’ll ask anyway because I’m a curious cat.
Do you believe in soulmates that transcend this lifetime? I suppose that would also require a belief in an afterlife and reincarnation. Do you feel there are people that we are meant to meet? Have you ever met someone and felt literally like you had been waiting your lifetime to meet this person? And if so, what happens when they leave?
I’ve never been one for small talk. May as well ask the probing questions. I’ve been told I ask probing questions. I’m not sure if was a compliment.
Do take care.”

I don’t know how I feel about where we go after we quit breathing. Sometimes I’m scared I won’t go anywhere, I’ll just go out like a light. I’m really scared of not being me anymore, whether there’s somewhere else or not. For some reason, I’m really afraid of that, forgetting everything, everyone. Though, I guess if I just blink out, or quit being me, I won’t know the difference anyway. The Catholic in me worries about Hell. If Hell does exist, I definitely worry that I’m guaranteed residency. Still, I’ll probably know a few people there, people I’d be absolutely glad to join. These are my jumbled musings on afterlife. I’m really not certain about any part of anything, except that my story here will end, and that it isn’t guaranteed to end the way I want. I’m truly scared that it won’t.

As for relationships that transcend lifetimes, again, I don’t know. I focus on relationships here, now, as they’re completely tangible. I definitely think there are people we’re meant to know, you feel that instant connection. I think friendships are the easiest to come by, we’re meant to have many, some for always, some that drift away, but are important just the same.

I totally think that if you’re open to it, there’s one person out in the world that you’re meant to know, in mind, body, soul, everything. Call it love at first sight, your soulmate, whatever. They’re like, the match to the puzzle piece that is you. That sort of connection is real, and immediate, and it’s the most powerful thing you’ll ever experience. You don’t get endless chances to find this connection, the chances are painfully finite.

I met my puzzle piece, and I lost her, and it fucking hurts. I don’t know what happens next.

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What to write? Tell me!

March 02nd, 2016 | Category: Life

So, I’ve asked this before, but it’s been quite awhile… I figure it’s about time to ask again.

If you could have me write ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, what would I write? I’ll write pretty much any topic. I’ll totally answer any question; casual, personal, really personal, whatever. Anything.

Just leave any requests in comments, and I’ll see to what needs written.

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