So, this tattoo is from a Priscilla Ahn song, City Lights, Pretty Lights, from her really spectacular second record, When You Grow Up. City Lights, Pretty Lights is sort of a dream-like folk version of PJ Harvey’s Dress. You get all prettied-up, you go out, hit the the town, but it’s all just dull, empty. You’re surrounded by people, and energy, but in your head, and in your heart, you just feel alone and lifeless.
I often feel this kind of empty, especially lately. My face hurts every moment of every day, I feel weak, and it’s all very lonely. I feel wrung out, hence the tattoo.
Oh, on a side note… This was far and away my most painful tattoo, but that’s part of the pleasure found in tattoos. It’s a decadent, delicious pain that strengthens the memory of getting the tattoo. I like when they hurt, it’s totally different than pain that’s forced on you. It’s a pain you choose because you know at the end, you’ll have something lasting and beautiful.No comments
So, this tattoo is from possibly my favorite Aimee Mann song, It’s Not, which is off of one of my top ten favorite records, Lost in Space. It’s Not is also possibly the saddest song ever written.
When I got this tattoo I was thinking about the last line of the song… “…and I believe it’s you who could make it better, though it’s not… no, it’s not…” That line, I always see Monica’s face when I hear it. I see her face, and feel the wasted years, and I wish so hard that I could take it all back, but I can’t. I wish I heard the song the way I hear it now, way back when, the first time I looked in her eyes.4 comments
I was really disgusted that a few cowards in the Senate were able to shut down the compromise gun control bill. I don’t understand why the NRA thinks it’s totally cool for people to skip a background check when buying an MP5 at some gun show or online. Who really needs an assault rifle either the same day they decide they want one, or Fedexed overnight? Until the zombies come, nobody.
I also find the argument that outlawing extended ammo clips wouldn’t save lives to be absurd. Just playing video games I know that reloading is when you die, that’s when the enemy gets you. So, the less reloading, the more killing I get to do safely. You’re a shitty hunter if you need 30 rounds to kill a deer. That much ammo is used for killing people, period. Unless you’re on a battlefield, you don’t need extended ammo clips.
If a little extra time and a little less ammo saves even ONE life, shouldn’t we as a modern, peaceful society, be willing to pay such prices?2 comments
So, I can’t quit the blog. I know it sucks, I know it’s awful, but if I quit it’ll just end awful. I don’t want that, this blog is actually really important to me. It’s a reflection of me, a totally honest reflection. If I quit, it’s like I’m quitting my life, and I’m not about to do that.4 comments
I hate having to say this again, because another act of mass-violence has happened again in America, these things shouldn’t happen…
My thoughts and prayers go out to the people of Boston affected by the vile act of terror perpetrated at the Boston Marathon, especially those still fighting hard and valiantly to keep breathing in local hospitals.
I should have posted immediately Monday, but I had some issues recovering from the face surgery…4 comments
So, I officially missed many days of posting. I was posting shit anyway. If I don’t turn this thing around by April 1, I’m quitting the blog entirely.8 comments